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  1. Hibernation period

    Oct 30, 2006

    Hello friends.
    It’s going to be hectic time ahead.
    This week we have Hill’ffair. Hill’ffair is cultural fest of NIT Hamirpur. It’s gala time for NIT Hamirpur’ians starting this Friday {3rd Nov} till Sunday. We’ll have dances, dramatics, songs, D.J, Fashion show {the best part?} and much more.

    This time our theme is “Break Free”.

    After that I’ve final submission of minor project. My project is to design a circuit to control a stepper motor from P.C using infra red {Sounds hi-tech!!! but it’s simple}.
    After that we’ve final practical, tests, and final EXAMS?.
    And then the winter break till mid January.
    I don’t know when I’ll be back here {Blogger}. But I’ll keep updating myself with your posts.

    Suggestion needed:
    I’m designing my personal database and I’ve finalized two options for the domain name. 1> www.sunilparmar.in. 2> www.sunilparmar.info.
    Please suggest which one sounds better?

    So finally this is Sunil signing off. Wish you all a great time!!!.

  2. The Casanova

    Oct 26, 2006

    I don't know why i wrote these lines...............maybe this is my idea of Love.
    Walking down the flower valley,
    He entered the dense forest.

    The forest glow with the light of his face and wind whispered a tone welcoming him.- the Casanova.

    Time froze by letting the sun not to set and the moon not to rise.


    As he kept walking the dense forest he heard a whisper:
    "Oh! Casanova you’ve finally arrived. Us the witches through life have been waiting for thee.Thou hold us to thy and make us humans.
    And let the moment last forever by never leaving us."


    The Casanova wasn’t fearful because he knew there is Love involved.

    He held the witch in his arms and said: “Let me be free.”

    And he was free..........

  3. A vision

    Oct 23, 2006

    A loud cry and everyone in the bus was staring him grovel on the floor.
    His mother held his stomach which was in intense pain. In his early twenties he caught up with some cancer which was curable but treatment was a costly affair for the poor. Now I guess how that widow would have managed her life with her only son who was an added burden on her. Mostly prayers are for the well-being of someone but I guess that the old lady would be asking god for peaceful death of her only son because life was more dreadful than death. All I could do at that time was to pray for the poor soul.

    As the time moved on, this situation denied to leave my subconscious mind & I kept asking myself: “why don’t we have free medical facilities for all?” This question bears no answer but this has left me with another question: Why don’t I do something?
    Right now it’s more than a half decade to this incidence but still it appears as if it happened yesterday.

    Now I have a dream to open hospitals offering free care for the poor people & the dream is still a dream and all I’ve in this dream is a "WHAT", it still lacks "WHEN".

  4. Gotta go!!!

    Oct 16, 2006

    Hello Friends.
    Exams are knocking heavily on my door, so i've to dust off my books & study something. I have five exams in three days-Starting this Wednesday (: . The very next day {i.e. Saturday} we have Diwali so I’ll pay a visit home. I’ll be back on Sunday {22nd}, till then miss you all. Now I’ll have to dig into my books and notes. (:Wish you all a very vibrant & colorful Diwali.
    Happy Blogging!!!!

  5. Maybe

    Oct 12, 2006

    How do you feel when the very first sip of tea tastes sour?
    This is what happened with me. Before entering the engineering field I consulted all the profession maps & engineering appealed me best coz I thought I have a mind of an engineer & an eye for details?-{Ordered tea}. Getting through the cut-throat competition I managed to procure myself a seat in Electrical engineering-{got the order [tea]}. At the very initial days of my engineering I got disheartened with the rote learning methodology followed at my institute & thought this is not what I’m supposed to do. I was very repentant during my first semester-{Oops! The tea tasted sour. But there’s no other option than to drink it coz I’ve already paid the price (:}.


    During my second semester I got introduced to the usefulness of computers & internet and it was love at first sight.
    Being an electrical engineer I’m supposed to rote about power generation & transmission but my mind is always busy thinking about computers & related world-{I had no option but to drink the tea so I thought about adding sugar into it}. Now the current situation is that I’m happy getting minimum possible grades required to sit in for a placement. I believe that life is all about following your passion coz its fun doing things you love. So I’m busy editing WebPages, learning about servers & can’t put aside my novels, magazines, newspaper & writing. They say: “you came empty handed & shall leave so.” But I think I’ll carry a novel and a pen with me even to the hell {Heaven wont accept me?. One question please: do they have internet facility over there? ?}. So now the tea is manageable coz I’ve flavored it my way.

    When I leave my college I shall not have fat degrees in my folder but one thing I’m sure about is that by then I would have lived & enjoyed life worth living and that too my way. And moreover this is the only period of life when we are so full of energy & thrill to experiment new things.
    Amongst load of classes {8:30 am- 5:30 pm}, assignments, projects & exams, It’s very difficult to find few moments of leisure. Last week we had a semester break & during this I experienced a very beautiful thing. Here I would like to share it with you. One day I thought about visiting the hilltop behind my hostel-to sit there and watch the sunset. And in those moments of complete me I realized many things. And the biggest realization was about how different I’ve grown as compared to my childhood. My entire childhood has been spent admiring the beauty of nature & the contemporary me don’t even know how to pluck the leaf which when pressed on your skin bears a very beautiful design. Here is my experience of my date with nature.

    Pressed the beautiful leaf on my hand but there was no design,
    Maybe those leaves don’t bear design anymore.


    Sat to watch the sun setting but saw the moon rising,

    Maybe the sun has changed its direction.


    Was longing to hear the birds chirping but there was extreme silence,
    Maybe the birds don’t sing anymore.

    Was longing to jump into the stream and feel the cold water caressing my body but there was no stream existing around,
    Maybe those streams don’t flow anymore.

    Dejected I returned to my room and sat staring the empty walls & the spider was busy weaving his web. Maybe there are birds singing somewhere, the springs still flow & leafs still bear beautiful designs.

    Then I opened my window and glanced towards the sky,
    And the moon was busy defining the beautiful starry night. Maybe this all is just an illusion of mind, or I’ve forgotten the obvious.

  6. Deep Contemplation

    Oct 9, 2006

    It was after a long time that I interacted with myself. Rather it was a deep contemplation. Thanks to Velu for such a wonderful tag.
    8 Facts About me, that could probably help unearth a few facets of the person that I am.
    1>My credo of life:
    Simplicity & straightforwardness. The real I and what I speak/write are synonymous.
    2>I love:
    Good food, Soft music, good jokes, sleeping {which is rare now a days}, net surfing {I’m crazy about websites & their designs}.
    3>I hate:
    Liars, grouchy people, politicians & people who don’t have consideration factor.
    4>Things which attract me to anyone:
    Simplicity, commonsense & sense of humor.
    5>How I deal relationships:
    A person is not judged by kind of company he/she keeps, but by the kind of company he/she avoids. So I can’t please everyone.
    To the persons close to me I’m sincere to max but if things really become out of control. I opt to move out coz there’s no use in dragging a relation. Dragging only makes any relation bitter.
    But let me tell you that here I’m talking about friendship. I’ve never been into love kind of relation. :)
    6>One secret about me:
    I keep fantasizing about my miss right. And I don’t expect her to the princess from those fairy tales. All I need is a very simple person who loves me unconditionally. But it’s so strange to know that people just pretend to be modern by putting masks & hence hiding their real self which makes it very difficult for me to find my miss right. :)
    7>Best thing I know about myself:
    I know my mind so I seldom face problems, Coz they never seem so.
    I’m rarely stressed coz you get stressed when you don’t satisfy your mind by giving the right explanation about the miss-happening or the thing causing stress.
    I never compare myself to anyone coz I want to be me not anyone else.
    8>Dream for life:
    I always keep my parents in mind coz I want to live for them & provide them
    each and every happiness they desire.
    Regarding my personal life: I’ll always adhere to simplicity. Just want to lead a very normal life full of values, emotions & integrity.
    It's my first experiance with TAGs so I've answered all the TAGs from Velu's blog. :)
    1.Are you happy / satisfied with your blog, with its content and look?
    A: Yes!!! More than anything else. The only problem is that the story counter is only showing one where as I’ve labeled two stories. :)
    2.Does your family know about your blog?
    A: No, actually most of the time I’m in the hostel so never got a chance to share such thing with my parents.
    3.Do you feel embarrassed to let your friends know about your blog or you just consider it as a private thing?
    A: Never, My blogging life and normal life are synonymous.
    4.Did blogs cause positive changes in your thoughts?
    A: Yes, I got to know so many great personalities over here.
    5.Do you only open the blogs of those who comment on your blog or you love to go and discover more by yourself?
    A: I’m regular on the blogs of friends who comment on my blog, but I do keep visiting new blogs also.
    6.What does visitors counter mean to you? Do you care about putting it in your blog?
    A: Creating a master piece in your backyard has no value. You’ve to bring it out into the world. So I think counter helps a person to keep track of people visiting his/her blog. But still I’ve not put counter on my blog coz I feel satisfied with comments itself.
    7.Did you try to imagine your fellow bloggers and give them real pictures?
    A: While reading any post I always try to imagine the great person behind its creation. The pic in my profile is mine.
    8.Admit. Do you think there is a real benefit for blogging?
    A: Manifold!!!! And the blogger community is the largest online community in contemporary world.
    As far as I’m concerned, blogging friends are as good as live friends so blogging is a part of life for me.
    9.Do you think that bloggers society is isolated from real world or interacts with events?
    A: No, rather I think with the freedom to project their views, bloggers play a major role in the society. Say, the Indian govt. was planning to ban blogging sites in India coz of some Ill reasons. This defines the power of blogging.
    10. Does criticism annoy you or do you feel it’s a normal thing?
    A: Positive criticism is always welcome.
    11. Do you fear some political blogs and avoid them?
    A: I’m not that much interested in politics but I don’t avoid any political blog either.
    12. Did you get shocked by the arrest of some bloggers?
    A: No, every thing has got certain rules & boundaries those who tend to cross the limits are definitely liable for punishment. But still I’ve not come across any such situation.
    13. Did you think about what will happen to your blog after you die?
    A: It depends upon Google, if they’ll not delete my account it’ll be always there, though there’ll only be accidental visitors. But one thing I’m sure is that I’ll carry memoirs of good friends I’m making/ shall make over here. And hope that I’m also able to carve out such space in someone’s [Any one who’s reading my blog] heart.
    14. What do you like to hear? What’s the song you might like to put a link to in your blog?
    A: I’m fond of music. Generally I hear old Hindi songs but anything which appeals my ears is good.
    I love the song: Main Zindagi Ka Saath Nibhata Chala Gaya, from the movie Hum Dono. It’s very inspiring song & if you wish you may download it from Here.

    I would love to TAG, Preetha {Coz she's not yet introduced to this concept} & you,who had patience to read till this point. :)

  7. I got introduced to the words of this great saint in my childhood days. Since then, I’ve been attached to his literature. Here I’ve not written an essay on Swami Vivekananda, rather I’ve shared few rare things related to him.
    Swami Vivekananda was a great saint from India who popularized the philosophy of Vedanta universally. Those of you who are not aware about him please go through following links.
    -About Swami Vivekananda {Vivekananda.Org}
    Most of us are aware about his great speech for which he won applauds from all over the world. I’m fortunate enough to have that speech in audio format {in 2 files}. Please feel free to download {Note: There has been a controversy regarding the originality of this voice. I don’t take the responsibility of any such controversy}:
    Click here=> |File-1|, |File-2|
    Some rare photographs of Swami Vivekananda are available on the net. Download from here: |Click here|
    You may also download wallpapers from here: |Click here|
    Screensaver: |Click here|
    There is plethora of literature available on Swami Vivekananda. But the only genuine is compilation of his complete work in 9 volumes.All the books of Swami Vivekananda are derived from these volumes.
    Soft copy of these volumes is available here:
    |Complete works of Swami Vivekananda|
    The hard copies also don’t cost much. You can order these from Ramakrishna Mission. |Click here|
    Subscribe to the daily quote of Swami Vivekananda. |Click here|
    Also you can send free e-greetings to your loved ones. |Click here|
    Hope you’ve benefited from this effort of mine.

  8. Only for you

    Oct 2, 2006

    I’ve drunk to your health in taverns,
    I’ve drunk to your health in my home,
    I’ve drunk to your health so damn many times,
    That I’ve almost ruined my own!
    -unknown author
    This one is only for you and no one shall have it. This was the response of my friend when I denied a peg of vodka on my birthday.
    C’mon mate! Don’t be paranoid. Just have it in one gulp and you’ll feel earth revolving west to east. It’ll remove all your worries & frustration.Just take a dip into the bliss infinite.
    Upon my assertion the quantity of peg was reduced to one sip, and it really worked. I felt if earth is revolving, though I don’t remember it revolved west to east or east to west. It also reduced my pain {that caused by b’day bumps}. Above all I felt bliss also coz next day was spent sleeping which is bliss itself :).
    Just one sip of alcohol had such an effect on me. Since that day I m wondering: why are people so attached to alcohol?
    Is it the taste? No! It doesn’t even smell good, taste is the last thing.
    It removes worries & frustration: No! All it does is reduction in the activity of mind for few minutes. so how can this remove worries & frustration?
    Is it a matter of style & status? No! This option is also ruled out coz a person looks better with a glass of juice than with a glass of this foul smelling liquid.
    So what’s the thing which makes people have it? Why don’t people have juice while in frustration?

  9. I died at 11:52am

    Sep 28, 2006

    Hello friends.
    I submitted this story for a story contest in my college. The caption was: “I died at 11:52am.” The word limit was 150 but I eschewed it, coz this story is itself a reward for me and nothing else matters. Results are yet to be declared.

    The Beginning of the end was when I returned to my Brother Edward’s home at the
    Lincoln Avenue of the University of Illinois. Amy (Edward’s daughter) was four then. Next day (25’Dec) was supposed to be a great day not only because it was Christmas but Amy would be turning five. Amy: The only reason why I stayed at my brother’s though I could have afforded a separate apartment for myself. There wasn’t a single moment when Amy would leave me alone. Amy couldn’t sleep anywhere except on my chest and I found it hard to sleep with someone on my chest. But again that’s how love is defined-Sacrifices without the feeling of sacrifice.
    That day I was returning home with a sample card of my engagement to Daisy. Daisy was a Christian girl of Indian origin. We met two years back at the university campus where Edward and Daisy’s dad were research colleagues. Amy saw me parking my car from the upper window and keeping her love for me in mind, there was no question she would stay over there. Full of excitement she started running downstairs and I too was in a hurry to gift her XL cocoa chocolate I had bought specially for her. I forgot that Amy was right at the low height entrance. I picked her with a thrust and her head collided heavily with the frame of the door. I sensed the wrong but then it was late. As the hands brought Amy’s face in front of mine, it had turned pale and her body was turning cold. I wanted to shout for her mother but it seemed as if something has chocked my throat. And this is the last thing I remember about me and Amy.
    When I regained my senses there was no use of regaining them. I found myself in the hospital bed. I overheard a doctor narrating the problem to Daisy.
    Doctor
    : “I m extremely sorry but Kevin’s (mine) brain has undergone a major stroke due to which his legs are paralyzed and also there’s malfunctioning of his speaking ability.-He’ll not be able to speak again.” Tears rolled down my cheeks. Felt like shouting out loud but couldn’t utter a single word. I was longing to know about Amy, hold her, and caress her. I glanced towards Edward who was sitting beside me. Sensing that I was asking about Amy he shook his head and tears rolled down his red swollen eyes, stating that Amy was no more.
    There was thud in my heart and the world seemed crestfallen. I wanted to jump right out of the window coz I can’t live without Amy.
    Then I heard Daisy crying and asking the doctor to save me. To her assurance doctor replied: “I m trying my level best and still there are chances that Kevin may survive, but to be fair enough he’s almost dead.”
    -ALMOST DEAD? Who’ll convince them that I died at 11:52 am itself when Amy was in my hands?
    Then a nurse injected me. Upon regaining consciousness I saw Daisy crying beside me. Suddenly it dawned on me that I was going to be a huge burden to everybody, that I had ruined my life and everybody else’s. Why not die, I thought miserably, and save everyone a lot of trouble? Daisy sensing me stopped weeping. And coming closer to me held my cold hand in hers and then she added the words which saved my life. “You are still you. And I love you.” I can’t drift away from things like this. I had to live, this was my credo now.
    A girl’s voice: Kevin!!!!
    Oh! It’s my four year daughter calling me inside to sleep. As it’s her sleeping –cum- story time I’ll have to move my wheel chair inside.
    So dear diary today I’m going to ask Daisy to narrate this story {incidence} to Amy -My daughter.

  10. Undefined Emotions

    Sep 25, 2006

    They are an group of children from the nearby slum area.
    When the clock strikes 5:30 pm they can be seen striding past my hostel, towards the academic block of my college.

    They have their own world which is difficult to express in their terms but in my terms it is: under-privileged, lacking sanitation & hygiene. In a broader sense: for them suffering and compromise has no meaning, its life itself.
    Few days back I was in hurry towards my hostel. Overtaking one such group I heard a voice from behind: “BHAIYA! AAP HUMEIN AB KYUN NAHIN PADHATE?” {Why have you left teaching us?-(Sense of the line, not the exact meaning)}. The voice had such an impact on me that I lost control of my thoughts and turned back. They all were gazing at me. Literally speaking, for a moment my mind was fixed on the question and I had the feeling of weightlessness {like the one we feel inside a lift}. I turned each and every grey cell of my mind but couldn’t get any satisfactory answer so I replied: “AB KOI AUR BHAIYA PADHATE HONGE.” {Now some other person might be teaching you}. From their expression it was clear that this was not the answer they expected. As I had some important work I moved forward.
    This incidence brought back the memories of days when I was member of the Team Literacy {A group of 20-30 engineering students who teach poor children}. It was two years back & now I’ve even forgot the name of my students {I taught fourth class}. One name which I still remember is Puju.
    Well Puju was a student from first standard but she never attended classes with her batch mates. She would either sit with her sister {who was in fourth standard} or she can be seen dozing somewhere. As soon as she was provided with any question, she would close her eyes and start dozing then and there. :). Only time span when she was active is that when chocolates are distributed to the students. - Very funny indeed. :)
    Due to various reasons I wasn’t able to continue my service into this mission after my third semester. But whenever I happen to come across through any such group of children, there’s a completely different feeling inside me & me searching an appropriate name for it.…….